i havent been doing this like i should be but i have been to busy trying to find a job, so i can get some money and get my own place, night

oh ya one more thing before i go, my uncle, his wife and my grandma are coming over tonight to have dinner and to play cards, well i hope it goes good, i wish brandon wasnt going to be here, he tends to make me look bad, cuz he is the star child, and i want lana to come but she doesnt want to feel weird, i just wish we could be together and be happy, and for me not to be so mean to her, but i am working on it i mean we are working on it. i love you lana

today started out crapy cuz my mom and brother left at like 530 am and want to know if i want to go with them, it was pissing me off cuz i just wanted to sleep, i havent had a good night sleep in a long time and i think last night was it, i just wish that they would leave me alone, i cant stand them, they bitch at each other all the time and try to drag me into it, and then they will try and make it all my fault, grr i really hate living here, its so depressing, i dont have a room and i sleep on the floor in the front room, in a sleeping bag, i cant wait to get off cerfew, if my PO ever lets me, and i can leave, move back into the salt lake area well i am out, ill come back and do another entry tonight be fore i go to bed.

hey everyone its been a couple days, i really havent done anything, today i went over to lanas house and we had a huge fight but it got better and we decided that we are going to split up for about 3 - 12 months for us to work out our problems we have if it ranges from anger or whatever. well i hope everyone have a good day and stay tuned for tomarrows update. bye

If you were here
I know that you would
Truly be amazed
At what's become of what you made
If you were here
You would know how I treasured every day
How every single word you spoke
Echo's in me like a memory of hope
When you were here
You could not feel the value that I placed
One every look that crossed your face
When you were here
I did not know just how I had embraced
All that you hid behind your face
Could not hide from me
'Cause it hid in me too
And wonder if maybe you can hear yourself
Ringing in me now that your somewhere else.
I miss you a lot
Cause I hear your strange music gentle and true
Singing inside me with the best parts of you
I love you.

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Well here i am again not doing a damn thing, i want to see lana so bad, i also want to go to a show...grr

well hell this is my first day so, lets see, i really havent done anything today, tried working on my truck but just got mad so i quit.